Dave's Camino Blog: Help!

I am getting discouraged being here. I jumped back on the road today and it started raining pretty hard while I was climbing up in the hills on a small road. It's just like "enough!" What am I doing here? I guess I'm sad to loose our group and the accumulated hardship is setting in and along with being alone cold and wet again just makes me wonder what am I doing and why. I am so far from Santiago, about 800 miles and I have done about 170 hard earned miles from Le Puy so far. Someone told me that true Pilgramages are not easy and I undertook this for a reason. I know letting go and acceptance are big parts of any journey like this, learning to take what comes and make adjustments, but for the past couple days I have just wanted my own bed, cooking and friends.

I am in a nice, small hotel just outside of Cajarc. Town is small and cute. I did run into Thomas and Elizabeth this afternoon who I met a few days back at lunch. They are the couple who told me they went to Greens in SF a few years ago. It was nice to see them, but likely for the last time. I'm going to try jumping ahead tomorrow doing 2.5 stages to Cahors, a bigger town on the Lot River. I scoped out a few miles of trail ahead and it looks pretty good.

There was a farmers market in town this afternoon and in a moment of sweetness, a woman found out I was a Pilgram and gave me a small bag of chocolate for my journey.

Keep some good thoughts for me as I try to make my way to Saint Jean Pied du Port that is about 10 days and 300 miles from here..

Dave